Author: fkelleher/ Krista Dawes
Notes: This is my first Obidala story. It's a looking back on a bit of their lives and duty also the effects on the galaxy for many many years to come. I think it's rated g .
He had just left baby Luke with Owen and Beru. Obi wan set out into the sandy Jungland wastes .Seeking out,what would be, the last home he would ever have.
Home sweet home. There is nothing sweet about this.
All those years ago, she had come to comfort him the night his master died. They bonded in, grief, intimate conversation, and comforting embrace.
The chaos of the recent events , the losses they both had suffered They had come to know one another unusually well, in such a short time. With admiration for each other and affection.Somehow feeling completed in each others presence. They had fallen in love.
There was no denying it. Each had their duties and huge responsibilities .
There was no way for this love to be .
Obi wan held her and spoke softly upon her ear.. "Oh my love, there is no way in this galaxy for us to be together. I have taken an oath to the Jedi Order .I also must fufill my promise to my master ,and train Anakin."
Tearfully she replies..
"Yes,of course you're right.I have my duties as Queen. My people need me,especially now. Its just so unfair there must be some way..."
He interupted. "Yes, Padme we both have our duties"
She offers to him " Sometime in the future then. I won't be Queen forever. I will wait for you."
"Padme ,I am a jedi ,it's who I am."
"Of course, I wouldn't ask you to leave the Jedi Order."
"I took an oath , and it's for life .Know this my darling , somehow had we met before I pledged my life to the Jedi, I would've pledged my life to you.
"Oh Obi wan. I would not ask you to give up who you are for anything. Your such an honest and honorable man. That's what I love and ,admire about you the very most. I love you so very much."
"As I love you Padme. You deserve to have ,a beautiful life and a family.Someone who can be with you and cherish you always. Give you children. I know you want children Padme. You deserve to have that life. Regretfully, I cannot give you that."
They stare in to each others eyes. After a long silence he tells her
"Padme I promise if in this galaxy there were any way for us..Such as if there were no Jedi Order, and no Republic, I would ask you to be my wife. I believe we both know that is not ever going to be our world. Regardless of that ,I will always love you with all that I am .As much as any man that lived ever could love a woman. If you ever need me, I will be there for you. I will lay down my life for you if need be my love."
" Obi-Wan thank you. I will always love you,always, with all my heart and as you said if there were no Jedi Order and no Republic I would accept your proposal and be your loving wife"
Overjoyed by the fact each other's feelings are returned ,yet anguished by their certain seperation,and his eminent departure. They embraced once more, committing to memory, each, and every touch ,word and feeling, they each experienced that night.
They both carried out their respective duties. The years passed, time did nothing to lessen their love for each other .
Well now the days of the Republic were over. The Jedi Order had been decimated.
Now the only thing keeping them apart was that Padme gone.
He was hurt deeply when he found out about her marriage to Anakin. She told him she was so lonely and that somehow she was proving that a Jedi could be married.That she never really loved Anakin the way she loved him. Lately she said he had become angry and moody.She had genuine fear for her safety should she try to leave him. There was nothing to forgive he could never stop loving her no matter what.
He felt responsible somehow .He hadn't had chance to tell her, all that had happened.Trying to ease her anyway he could through childbirth, it certainly was not the right time. He felt that would be selfish .If he'd told her ,maybe she would have had the will to live.
He said aloud to himself, "Oh my dearest ,lovely Padme we almost had our chance."
In his mind ,he heard his masters voice repeating what he had said to him on Naboo the day they'd first met her.
"Be mindful of your thoughts my young padawan. Attachment can be dangerous."
He had lost everything,everything, except his honor, by being a man true to his word. He would protect and eventually begin training Luke.
Obi wan's sacrafice ,(unbeknownst to him)would save the galaxy many times over.
Obi wan Kenobi would forever be a Jedi . Padme Amidala would always be "his" Queen.
Sometime in the future these beautiful, yet painful memories may become a legend of a great romance that happened (or not), a long time ago in a galaxy far, far away.